Today was not a good day in terms of contact between Daddy and CJ. On most days now that I am away, I usually get the opportunity to whisper a few words to her on the phone. Today the chance never offered itself. I talked to Mommy, even emailed her. For some reason CJ was not around. So I have to sit here and think about the last words from her mouth. They were, "uh oh!" I can here her voice now echoing what has become her favorite phrase to say.
You know, sometimes I daydream and wonder if it is all worth it. The month of July changes the tone of the Johnson's of Old Bridge. We all have our way of doing coping but is the separation healthy. I notice that when I come in their is a warming up period for the Princess that I wish was not there. However her world is changed weekly and one has to gain full admittance at her leisure.
I pray she is sleeping soundly and I look forward to our day at the zoo this Friday. Continue to pray for us. We know that prayer changes things, people and situations.
NOTE TO CJ: Sometimes in life you have to ask yourself this question about all you do. You must ask yourself daily, "Is it worth it?"
