OK, everyone told me that when I became a father that my needs and wants would take a back seat to my child. Of course I emphatically said that would not be the case. I would still get everything I wanted, when I wanted it. Slowly I am coming to learn that I, Jamal T. Johnson, was wrong.
Now I am not saying that I can not get what I want. The desire is simply not there. For instance, today I had the opportunity to roam the mall for two and a half hours alone. With the mall full of shoe stores, places to buy suits and ties, and sneaker stores, I am sure I could have thought of one thing I wanted that I could buy. However, that was not the case. I walked in the mall and I see the baby clothing store so I walk in. I did not see anything worth spending money on, so I made my way to Macy's, but not to the Men's section or the cologne counter, but the baby section. After Macy's then I decided to look for some sneakers for C.J. I promised to get her the Kobe's so I looked for them and found them. After the purchase I was content. I walk towards the exit and bought me nothing. Now you know my life has changed if I can go to the mall and leave with nothing for me. C.J. is taking over.
Now Mommy and I differ about her sneakers. Mommy wants her to be cute, while Daddy wants her to have proper basketball attire. So C.J. having a pair of Kobe Bryant and Lebron James sneakers is only fitting. Mommy says they look like boy sneakers. Daddy only sees the sport! I will admit I will have to think about what she wears because I do not want her looking too much like a boy. I should have no problem since I also like to buy her dresses and skirts. The only rule, be it clothes or shoes from Daddy is, NO PINK (if I can help it).
So this evening Mommy needed some time to rest so C.J. and I caught up on some bonding time. C.J. and I enjoy our time together. We laugh, we smile, we hug and we play. Today Mommy asked me to make sure C.J. had some sufficient "tummy time". I obliged and C.J. was on point today. She rolled over on her own, and stayed on her belly for a long time. She was very active on her mat and even scooted a bit. So I give her a A- today. I do not want to give her an A+ because then she would be a master of all we want her to do.
So I am feeling good tonight! C.J. is developing well. I am getting stronger and all is getting better. So you all continue to pray because we all know that prayer changes things. It's funny, I am actually listening to Prayer Changes by R. Kelly. Here is a link to the song, (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GNd5M456OtY&feature=fvw) and I will leave you the lyrics as well. Enjoy!
"Prayer Changes" R. Kelly
Somebody just look back over your life and
See where he brought you from
How many of you know?
Prayer changes (I heard that)
Prayer changes (I believe that)
Prayer changes (I know that)
Prayer changes things
Prayer changes (I heard that)
Prayer changes (I believe that)
Prayer changes (I know that)
Prayer changes things
Now I was in a real bad abusive relationship
Knowing that, that was no way for me to live
A young girl like me, raised up in a good family
Way too young to endure such misery
And every night I cry myself to sleep from all the pain
And the more I prayed for sunny days it seemed to rain
(He hit me) at any given time
(He hit me) no reason at all
(He hit me) so so hard
(He hit me) my God, sometimes I'd fall
Mama asked what happened to me
And I'd take up for him
She said that devil's a liar
And pray get rid of him
And now I'm going to school
Hitting those books
I'm doing fine
He's out my life
I'm not confused
Got peace of mind
Man I tell you
Prayer changes (it changes)
Prayer changes (oh it changes)
Prayer changes (I'm a witness that)
Prayer changes things (said I know)
Prayer changes (it changes)
Prayer changes (it changes)
Prayer changes (I'm a living witness that)
Prayer changes things
I was a freshman in college and uh
I had just made it on the basketball team
I had all the skills it took to make it
But on my grades I would get nothing but all D's
And the coach came to me
And had a talk with me about my career
Said if you don't get your grades up
I'm gonna have to sit you down this year
Man as tough as I was I broke down and cried
'Cause everybody knows me
Knows that basketball is my life
(Algebra) I studied hard
(Chemistry) I gave my all
(Calculus) oh my God
(English) so many flaws
Playing ball didn't look to good for me
My future, could not see
I had lost all my beliefs
And gave up on all my dreams
Then I went to church on Sunday
And the pastor began to preach
It was like he was talking to me
When he said I can do all things
In Christ that strengthens me
And for me that was enough
Now that I went from a D
All the way to an A plus
I tell you prayer changes things
Prayer changes
Prayer changes (prayer)
Prayer changes (it changes things)
Prayer changes things (oh)
Prayer changes (said it changes)
Prayer changes (things)
Prayer changes (I'm a living witness that)
Prayer changes things
Me and my wife had a few problems
We thought that nothing could solve them
Listening to family members and so called friends
Man I tell you that's just how the devil creeps in
We were separated at least for a month or two
She was wilding in the clubs
And I was out there doing wrong too
And we would walk around the house
Putting each other down
I mean right in front of the kids
We would curse each other out
Then I was in a bad accident
And almost lost my life
And guess who was there for me
My wife
Now ain't it funny how He makes a way
When we said there was no way
I'm out the hospital and back at home
Planning another wedding day, I tell you
Prayer changes (it changes)
Prayer changes (prayer changes)
Prayer changes (prayer changes)
Prayer changes things (things, I'm a witness that)
Prayer changes (change)
Prayer changes (prayer changes)
Prayer changes (prayer changes)
Prayer changes things
Now all of these things were happening in one family
But that's okay, cause there's nothing God can't achieve
I don't care what the problem in your life may be
Cause who the Son sets free, is free indeed
And if you didn't know, now you should know
All you have to do is take this family life for example
Now Mom and Dad are married again
Four kids now, cause they just had twins
Little sister all grown up now
She's a lawyer, married with one child now
Two years, big brother's out of college
And man he's got his hands full
Blessed with skills, blessed with knowledge
Now he's playing for the Chicago Bulls
Prayer changes (I'm a witness yeah)
Prayer changes (prayer changes)
Prayer changes (prayer changes)
Prayer changes things (woah when it looks like)
Prayer changes (you can't go on)
Prayer changes (I know that prayer)
Prayer changes (changes things)
Prayer changes things
Prayer changes (in the middle of the storm)
Prayer changes (prayer will calm)
Prayer changes (cause it changes things)
Prayer changes things (yeah)
Prayer changes (prayer changes)
Prayer changes (prayer changes)
Prayer changes (prayer changes things)
Prayer changes things (woah)
Prayer changes (even if you're doing wrong)
Prayer changes (even if your money's gone)
Prayer changes (if you're put out your home)
Prayer changes things (yeah come on)
Prayer changes (if you can't find a friend)
Prayer changes (at your journey's end)
Prayer changes (feel you just can't win)
Prayer changes things (woah woah)
Prayer changes (you're really going through)
Prayer changes (and trouble's chasing you)
Prayer changes (Heaven's got a hold on you)
Prayer changes things (yeah)
Prayer changes (when it seems you can't go on)
Prayer changes (and all your strength is gone)
Prayer changes (hold on it won't be long)
Prayer changes things (I know prayer is gonna change)
Prayer changes (drinking or doing drugs)
Prayer changes (even if you're running the streets)
Prayer changes (even in the music field)
Prayer changes things (rock, pop or R&B)
Prayer changes (prayer will change)
Prayer changes (prayer will change)
Prayer changes (prayer will change)
Prayer changes things....
[Thanks to The_Pied_Piper6@hotmail.com for these lyrics]
