Is it Friday yet? At this very moment I am exhausted. My body is worn down as a result of a week so busy it is a blur. Between work and church, I have not been home much. When I do come home I am so tired I literally fall out, only to start the long tedious journey again the next day. Praise God for life and the will to go on, though.
As for C.J. and me, the bulk of our communication was by way of telephone. I would call home to see how my leading ladies were doing and I would hear my baby through the phone being chatty. Just to hear the joy in her sounds was enough to help me get through the day so I could at least look upon her as she slept.
Today was no exception. I left home early this morning to return at about 9:30pm. I rushed up the stairs to wash my hands as usual and went in to greet my ladies. Shatema was up but C.J. was sleeping on this Boppy pillow thing. So I picked her up, kissed her and placed her in her crib. Well C.J. decided to wake up. Now I have to admit even though I am really tired, I'm glad she did. I just love to see her little eyes observing her surrounding and I just want her to see her Daddy's face everyday. So I picked her up and walked around with her a bit until it was time to try to get her back to sleep.
I realized that it is never too late for me to want to see this girl. She has quickly ascended the list to being a top priority for me. I guess it's God, then C.J, in that order. I still love my wife and mom but C.J. is that girl, man! So no matter what time I get in, there is a little part of me that is wishing to hear her making her sounds so I can go get a glimpse of her. Now in fairness to Mommy, a smaller part of me wishes that right after our eyes connect she drifts back off to sleep. So then Mommy and Daddy can be well rested.
So time is not an issue with C.J. and I. We just want to ensure that we get our connection time daily with each other. So I know these days it's up to me to make it happen. There will be a day when I have to remind C.J. that she needs to connect with Daddy daily. Those days I dread already, when my baby becomes a little woman. What is Daddy to do? Until next time people...always remember to pray because prayer changes things.
