I used to look for more hours in a day because I wanted to fit time in to do what I now see as nothing. More dates to hang with the fellas, to recuperate from long nights and to add more amusement to my life. Now I look for more time for two reasons, rest and C.J.
For some reason 24 hours never seems to be enough. When I look back at the day and I factor in the time I drive, the time she sleeps, the time I have to do some type of work, and the time spent preparing for the next day, it seems that my daddy/daughter time is not where I want it to be. Now some of you remember that last week I took some time to prioritize things in my life, to allow for more time with C.J. I did that and I found particular days. Days where C.J. and Daddy can hang out and strengthen the father/daughter bond. I am not referencing those days now. My issue now is time within the day. Days now seem so routine for me. I am a free thinker and spirit. When I plan, it has to be my schedule, not the one forced on me by life...get up, get ready, go to work, work, drive home, cook, prepare for tomorrow, go to sleep. I need some extra hours to just sit and stare at C.J., to go out and toss the ball around, to run around and play tag and to sit for hours and read with her all the science book we can.
Those days will come because God will send them our way! All that needs to be done will be accomplished within the time frame that God allots. I am OK with that because as the preacher said today, "I have a direct connection with God!", and if you're not down with that, I have two words for you, "GET ONE!"
Time will always be of interest for me because I always watch. I think I may need to change the way I look at time moving forward. Currently I always see it as running out. I may need to look at time as what it is, something developed to calculate days, years and centuries. That way it means nothing to me and I just go about my life doing what I want, when I want and how God arranges it to be done.
I will ponder on that. Until I come back with an answer you all remember to pray because prayer changes things.
C.J. Daddy never wants you to be in a hurry. Do things with style and grace. Now I am not telling you to be a slow poke, either. But your Daddy knows that when people rush, they mess up. However, when they take their time, they accomplish what they set out to do. Always loving you, your Daddy!
