When you arm begins to get heavy because nestled within it is your daughter who has become comfortable, happiness is the feeling that you have. Earlier tonight Mommy and Daddy both realized that this week C.J. was spoiled beyond belief. We are both home...Mommy's time off is because school is out and Daddy's is because he needed some time to look deep into himself. C.J wanted to be in one of our hands at all times. I know I should have been a little more stern with her but when Daddy and his girl are together, she usually gets the best of him.
I have been talking a lot lately about her being the number one priority in all I do, and I want to explain why. When I became a parent I only knew parenting as what I was raised under. That is that you do whatever is necessary for your children to have what they need and to feel loved. When two parents can keep six children fairly happy I would say they were pretty good at it. So now that I have one child I want to make sure that she is always happy. If it means skipping a meeting, so be it. If it means working long hours, so be it. If it means lugging her with me to make sure I stay on schedule to meet her needs then so be it. If you could see her face when she is with me, it would make you melt as well. She has this look of "This is my daddy of whom I am well pleased". I am pleased because he dances with me, he kisses me, he provides for me, he laughs with me, he comforts me, he listens to me and he talks to me. This is the look she gives me, and I pray that it transforms into those thoughts someday.
These past few days have shown me what a relationship between Daddy and daughter should be. It is my job to make sure this is a reality, and not just what I believe should happen. As the songwriter said, "Practice what you preach." I never want to be viewed as someone, especially by my own Princess C.J., as one who just "talks the talk".
As I prepare to unveil a revived me, a better me for myself and C.J., and a more focused me for the world, you all continue to pray because prayer changes things.
C.J., in life you will sometimes feel like you have no energy. Be strong enough to say I need to take some time for myself to revive yourself so you can operate at 100%. Take it from your Daddy, it is you that will be your weakest link and your biggest enemy toward your own progress if you allow yourself to be consumed in yourself. Every so often, do a personal spring cleaning! Love you much!
