Sometimes when you sit down to write you have to pause and think about what is going on around you. There was no coincidence that as I looked for things to watch tonight, A Raisin In The Sun was on. I caught the tail end of the movie where Sonny lost all the money but then he grew up when he would not take money in exchange for his family not moving to a new part of town. I still do not know why it has had such an impact on me but for some reason it has. There is a part of the movie where the mother asks her grandson to come watch his father sell his soul. I pondered on what CJ watches me do? I mean I go to work every day. I pray with my family. I enjoy spending time with them. I try to be an advocate of change in the community. I provide and protect my girls, and I will do anything necessary to ensure their happiness.
The question still remains what is CJ learning from me as her dad? This glimpse of television forced me to look at where we are as a family and where we are going. I'd like to say by the grace of God we are in a good place. However I know God has more in store for us. I have learned to be patient and wait on God. As as favorite song of mine says, "I can depend on God, through the storm, through the rain, through sickness and through pain, I can depend on God!" I really believe this too and I want my daughter to have the same feeling.
Just a few highlights for the day. After staying up way past her bed time last night, CJ slept in this morning. As I left for work she shifted about a bit but she did not wake up. When I came home CJ and Mommy were up and active. We are beginning to have to deal with disciplining her. I know Daddy for sure is dealing with drawing that line. Trying to decipher between what she knows she is doing versus what is developmental. It is a little difficult at this point in time but we are creating the limits and boundaries and the expectations will be laid out soon for everyone to understand. She has to learn that her pretty smile is only for the camera and to make Daddy's day when he is down. It is not meant to get her out of trouble.
As I finish up tonight remember, when you pray to include someone else in your prayers. Prayer changes things, people, and situations especially the one that prays for someone else!
