I hate that it has to be this way, but C.J. and I not seeing each other over the span of a weekend, is a reality. Now before you go and say I am a terrible parent, I did see my child every day this weekend, but the time was scarce. The first order of business was Men's Day at the church. Saturday and Sunday wake up times were early because I needed to be at the church ready to go by 7:45am. I also had to work this Saturday, which did not help things either. One good thing was that I had a chance to catch up with other family as we celebrated my little cousin's birthday. Then my usual Sunday activity was still on deck. Though I always come back and report to C.J. how her uncle played, I was torn ragged. So the little time I was in the house, all I wanted to do was feel the bed. However C.J. had other plans this morning, and even though I was tired, I had no problem tending to her every need because that gets me close to her.
Daddy being gone is already common to C.J. I am torn in so many directions on some days that I sometimes can not find time for myself. However when I do, like right now, it will be C. J. and I together. When I arrived home today I grabbed her up and we viewed the last football games together. These are the moments that will be memorable to me. The late hours where she and I interact, and we both are our crazy selves. This also give Mommy the break she deserves. She is really great... she never tries to give me ultimatums or nags me about my time away. Instead, she supports me in what I do, as long as the beneficiaries are my family, and if it brings me happiness. I appreciate her understanding and I encourage her to do the same when she needs time to herself. I know she worries about C.J., even when she is with Daddy, but I assure her that she and I will be OK.
I always try to make sure that I do not find myself away from home too much. I love coming home to my girls and relaxing as a family. I am still trying to balance those things out, which I know frustrates Mommy. It is taking longer than I would like, but all my ducks will soon be in a row. Daddy will always be gone bye bye at one time or another, rather it be business or pleasure. The one thing that will remain constant is that I will always be missing my baby while I am away. That is enough for me tonight. As always, remember to pray because prayer changes things.
