Twas the night before Christmas and all through the house, Mommy and Daddy are stirring, and we better not have a mouse. I just put the Princess down for the night and now Mommy and Daddy have to arrange all of her stuff under the make-shift tree. We have the tree lights that I traveled the earth to find and the Christmas music playing in the background.
As I listen to the Christmas songs loop 'round and 'round, I think to myself what this is all about. This year has been a trying year for me and the holiday season has not been merry and as joyous as I would have wanted it to be. I know a lot of people have said that with the birth of C.J. this would be an exciting time for us as a family and it is. To be honest C.J. and Shatema are what fill my life with substance and purpose now, that along with God, of course.
So today as we ran around looking for things to put under the tree for C.J., I have to admit that I was losing interest all throughout. I had become a part of the masses that were out last minute shopping for no purpose. It is my desire to always be able to shower C.J. with stuff. However I want this to occur year round, not because the status quo has labeled a certain period of the calendar as such. I want her to know that this holiday is a exaggeration of a more important event, that being the birth of Christ.
Some may say I am saying these things because I am in a funk but this is part of my upbringing, which as I grow older just makes more and more sense to me. Never will I get so strong that I deprive my child of the enjoyment and the excitement that this season brings but she will know the true feelings that should be possesed during this holiday season.
So as the night fades, I forgot to make the cookies, lol! For real as I sign off I do pray that the joy I have from my leading ladies is the joy that I can spread to anyone I come in contact with. It is love, peace and good will towards all men that should be what this season is all about.
As I go, please always remember to pray because we know that prayer will change things.
