There are some days where I will sit and think about C.J. for most of the day. I think about how she will grow. How she will look? How she will act? What things she will enjoy and how we will both mature in this father/daughter relationship? Most of the time what comes to my head is music. For a long time now music has served as my outlet. Some of you may know a song I heard "Your Joy" at one of my best friend's weddings. It is the storyboard for what C.J. is to me...simply "My Joy". Well today, two other old school songs came to mind. The first would be "Chocolate Girl" by the Whispers. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2R1L7xLMLK4
The other song today was, "You're A Big Girl Now" by the Stylistics. This song speaks of how a little girl grows into a young woman. Similar to "Your Joy" by Chrisette Michele, they present to a father his little girl maturing into a young woman. As I spoke with a young lady today it became more and more evident that C.J. having me in her life will be beneficial to her healthy growth into adulthood. It convinced me that I must continue to be the example of what a man is, what she should expect and how one should treat her. It is a tall task but no one is more equipped and ready to work at the task than me. I have attached the lyrics for you:
(You're a big girl now
No more daddy' little girl)
(You're a big girl now
No more daddy' little girl)
No more pigtail's
In your hair
No more silly looks
With a childish glare
No more dolls
For you to play
No more dumbness
In the things you say
(You're a big girl now
No more daddy' little girl)
(You're a big girl now
No more daddy' little girl)
You can love girl
If you must
You can kiss girl
If you must
But you see
Day by Day
All the realness
In your way
(You're a big girl now
No more daddy' little girl)
(You're a big girl now
No more daddy' little girl)
Baby I love you
(Baby I love you)
Yes I do
(oh yes I do now)
In all my life
(In all of my life)
You're my dream come true
(You're my dream come true)
You're a big girl now
(You're a big girl now)
Yes you are
You're my happiness
You're my shining star
(Shining star)
(You're a big girl now
No more daddy' little girl)
(You're a big girl now
No more daddy' little girl)
As I sang these lyrics to C.J. before her bath tonight I looked into her eyes as they stared back into mine. A smirk of comfort came across both our faces. We are beginning to understand each other even though she is still so young. We are creating a complex chemistry that the two of us will share the solution to solving. God, I thank you for placing C.J. in my life!
As I part, you all remember to pray because prayer changes things!
