For the past few weeks C.J. and I have had a transportation relationship. I bring her to the babysitter and I pick her up. The problem is that I never envisioned this to be how my relationship with my child would be. I am the type of guy who wants to be with C.J all day, everyday.
The type of career I have presents different seasons and this happens to be the busiest of all. Just last week, I was away from home from Monday through Thursday night. Since C.J. is in bed and sleep at a certain time the only interaction I get is to look at her as I prepare to get in bed. What a boring life for Daddy, and I know C.J. misses the fun we have. So when I came home today and she was awake, you could imagine my joy as we danced, played and watched Sports Center (You know that is our bonding time).
So I needed to take a day off so I could do some self-reflection With all the things going on in my life, the traveling for work, the long commute to and from the office, C.J., church responsibilities and so much more. I needed to take my own advice and evaluate what is important in my life and to effectively plan courses of action. One day will get me started but I have a few more coming up. Some things will change and some things will be cut out completely. I am determined to get back on point. I had a dry spell but now I am plugged into the charger and the green light will be back sooner than later.
Shatema was speaking to C.J. today and assured her that Daddy does all he does for her, and that is the truth. So I am giving notice...if I am going to put 100% effort into something, it had better benefit C.J. in some way. If not, I'm discontinuing all involvement and it goes to the bottom of the totem pole.
I will be back on top shortly! Until then, always remember to pray because prayer changes things.
C.J. you are the family that I pledge allegiance too! With God first I know you will be taken care of.
