If you notice I have not been writing everyday. That is because I am in one part of the state and CJ is in another. I get to here her voice about twice a day but that is all the interaction we have together. It really is taking a toll on Daddy so when he is home on the weekend he wants to spend every waking and sleeping moment with his Princess. I talk to Mommy everyday and she gives me detailed updates of what CJ is doing. It still does not feel right not being there, but a man has to do what a man has to do to provide for his family.
This weekend was another busy one for us. Yesterday was the Family and Friends Day Festival at the church. We had an awesome time. Great fellowship, great praise, great worship, and a great word! CJ went and she was well behaved, which is always a good thing. yesterday when I went in the middle aisle as we opened the doors of the church CJ saw me and called out Da Da. I smiled because I thought it was cute. She is very attentive in church too. Mommy and I spoke about how children need to be introduced to the word young. We both do not believe in her bringing toys to church and not hearing the word. It is the word that will one day change her life. Not the fact that she goes to church or that her Daddy is a preacher. She must accept the Lord as her personal Lord and Savior. Daddy wants the word to simmer until the day she is ready to give her life to Christ.
So CJ has begun to say the word uh oh for everything, she drops something, uh oh! She moves to a location she should not, uh oh! She just feels like saying it, uh oh! It is so cute too. I find CJ to be so funny at times and wonder when she will wear her uh oh welcome out? I had to get back to work early on Sunday so I could not spend to much time with her but next weekend its all us. Daddy and Princess CJ! Keep praying folks, change will occur to things, people, and situations!
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
CJ and Mommy - The E-Mail
As you all know by now, I am away at work and CJ and Mommy are home together. Now Daddy wishes that this arrangement was the other way around but it is what it is and we have to live with it. Most of the updates about CJ come by way of Mommy through conversations on the phone or by AIM. Today was a little different. (Yes it is 12:20AM and I am on here typing about my Princess)
Today as I returned back from lunch I decided to check my emails to see what had changed from the half hour before.(I only get a half hour lunch because we are working this summer extended schedule and I do not like it one bit)So on my work email, not my personal one I have a message from Mommy. It the message she explains to me that CJ is having some serious separation anxiety. She informed me that CJ catches tantrums and cries when Mommy is not in her line of vision. She does not even want to play on the floor. She wants her Mommy and will stop at nothing to have her. Now I sensed the frustration that was accompanied by the email and I decided to call to gauge what the situation was.
Talking to Mommy I understood better the situation. Mommy mentioned sending her to the sitter on Friday's which I totally agree with, just not this Friday because we are going to the zoo. I agree wholeheartedly that CJ has to learn how to operate and function without her parents. Even though it is extremely hard for me to be away from her I know she needs to go through this. So of course I researched the topic a little bit and saw that this is a part of development for babies right at this age and it seems CJ is a textbook case. The great thing is that Mommy is on top of the game with all the coping mechanisms. (Honestly people, what would I do without Mommy)
Not being with my Princess during the week really takes a toll on me. I try to occupy myself so I do not have her on my mind but since August 7, 2009 C.J. Johnson is a part of my mind. Hearing what I read today makes me want to be with her even more now. I know it will not help at all but it will ease Daddy, and that counts for something.
So the email stalled my day a bit. I honestly wanted to drive home, relieve Mommy and see my princess. I did not though because the goodbye for Daddy would have been painful on my end. I also did not get a chance to speak to her today but will make it my business to hear her voice and for her to hear mine. In the meantime folks keep praying. I assure you it changes things, people, and situations.
Today as I returned back from lunch I decided to check my emails to see what had changed from the half hour before.(I only get a half hour lunch because we are working this summer extended schedule and I do not like it one bit)So on my work email, not my personal one I have a message from Mommy. It the message she explains to me that CJ is having some serious separation anxiety. She informed me that CJ catches tantrums and cries when Mommy is not in her line of vision. She does not even want to play on the floor. She wants her Mommy and will stop at nothing to have her. Now I sensed the frustration that was accompanied by the email and I decided to call to gauge what the situation was.
Talking to Mommy I understood better the situation. Mommy mentioned sending her to the sitter on Friday's which I totally agree with, just not this Friday because we are going to the zoo. I agree wholeheartedly that CJ has to learn how to operate and function without her parents. Even though it is extremely hard for me to be away from her I know she needs to go through this. So of course I researched the topic a little bit and saw that this is a part of development for babies right at this age and it seems CJ is a textbook case. The great thing is that Mommy is on top of the game with all the coping mechanisms. (Honestly people, what would I do without Mommy)
Not being with my Princess during the week really takes a toll on me. I try to occupy myself so I do not have her on my mind but since August 7, 2009 C.J. Johnson is a part of my mind. Hearing what I read today makes me want to be with her even more now. I know it will not help at all but it will ease Daddy, and that counts for something.
So the email stalled my day a bit. I honestly wanted to drive home, relieve Mommy and see my princess. I did not though because the goodbye for Daddy would have been painful on my end. I also did not get a chance to speak to her today but will make it my business to hear her voice and for her to hear mine. In the meantime folks keep praying. I assure you it changes things, people, and situations.
Monday, July 12, 2010
Minimal Contact
Today was not a good day in terms of contact between Daddy and CJ. On most days now that I am away, I usually get the opportunity to whisper a few words to her on the phone. Today the chance never offered itself. I talked to Mommy, even emailed her. For some reason CJ was not around. So I have to sit here and think about the last words from her mouth. They were, "uh oh!" I can here her voice now echoing what has become her favorite phrase to say.
You know, sometimes I daydream and wonder if it is all worth it. The month of July changes the tone of the Johnson's of Old Bridge. We all have our way of doing coping but is the separation healthy. I notice that when I come in their is a warming up period for the Princess that I wish was not there. However her world is changed weekly and one has to gain full admittance at her leisure.
I pray she is sleeping soundly and I look forward to our day at the zoo this Friday. Continue to pray for us. We know that prayer changes things, people and situations.
NOTE TO CJ: Sometimes in life you have to ask yourself this question about all you do. You must ask yourself daily, "Is it worth it?"
You know, sometimes I daydream and wonder if it is all worth it. The month of July changes the tone of the Johnson's of Old Bridge. We all have our way of doing coping but is the separation healthy. I notice that when I come in their is a warming up period for the Princess that I wish was not there. However her world is changed weekly and one has to gain full admittance at her leisure.
I pray she is sleeping soundly and I look forward to our day at the zoo this Friday. Continue to pray for us. We know that prayer changes things, people and situations.
NOTE TO CJ: Sometimes in life you have to ask yourself this question about all you do. You must ask yourself daily, "Is it worth it?"
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
What A Weekend
Ok, I have a lot to catch you up on. I know I have been slacking but I did not take my laptop with me on the mini family get away. I should have because I could have kept you up to date with what was going on. So I have now been to Atlanta and I will admit that it is not at all what I thought it would be. I enjoyed the time with my family but what I saw of the city was less than impressive.
That is not what i want to share though. I want to let you know about how CJ handled her first road trip. Mommy did not like it one bit. This was her first ride of this magnitude and its funny that i did not remember that she gets car sick until now and the trip is over. CJ was a little fussy about having to ride in the car seat but periodically she was taken out to get a breather or worse, to be changed. Their was one time where I wanted to kick her out of the van because she smelled so bad. As I drove I would hear CJ keeping the riders entertained by her whistling and laughing. I do not know what else she was doing back there but she was having herself a grand old time.
The highlight of the trip for me was taking JC in the pool for the first time. I myself really am not a fan of the water. I will get in and chill out for a few but you will not hear me initiating a trip to the beach. Anyway, CJ put her little (Daddy approved) bathing suit and of course she hand a terry cloth jacket to go over it. We went down to the pool and at first she wanted to have nothing to do with it. She clawed at me to get her out of the water. Her aunt then took her and i guess soothed her enough to feel OK in the water. Once I got her back she was ready to go. I would lay her on the water and in CJ fashion like she was in the tub she began to splash. She then exercised her baby instinct to swim and be can to kick her legs and mover her arms. She smiled and giggled as I navigated her all around the pool she even went to the deep end as well. Daddy enjoyed himself, CJ enjoyed herself and the two of us shared a memory that will last a lifetime. of course I will have to show her the pictures to let her know how it all went down.
Another highlight was that CJ showed again that she is 100% my daughter. We went to the Golden Coral (You know when you are south at least one meal must be there) and Daddy put some grits on his plate. I have to tell you folks that I had to go get seconds because my princess devoured my grits. She clearly enjoyed them and she feasted on her pancake too.
That is not what i want to share though. I want to let you know about how CJ handled her first road trip. Mommy did not like it one bit. This was her first ride of this magnitude and its funny that i did not remember that she gets car sick until now and the trip is over. CJ was a little fussy about having to ride in the car seat but periodically she was taken out to get a breather or worse, to be changed. Their was one time where I wanted to kick her out of the van because she smelled so bad. As I drove I would hear CJ keeping the riders entertained by her whistling and laughing. I do not know what else she was doing back there but she was having herself a grand old time.
The highlight of the trip for me was taking JC in the pool for the first time. I myself really am not a fan of the water. I will get in and chill out for a few but you will not hear me initiating a trip to the beach. Anyway, CJ put her little (Daddy approved) bathing suit and of course she hand a terry cloth jacket to go over it. We went down to the pool and at first she wanted to have nothing to do with it. She clawed at me to get her out of the water. Her aunt then took her and i guess soothed her enough to feel OK in the water. Once I got her back she was ready to go. I would lay her on the water and in CJ fashion like she was in the tub she began to splash. She then exercised her baby instinct to swim and be can to kick her legs and mover her arms. She smiled and giggled as I navigated her all around the pool she even went to the deep end as well. Daddy enjoyed himself, CJ enjoyed herself and the two of us shared a memory that will last a lifetime. of course I will have to show her the pictures to let her know how it all went down.
Another highlight was that CJ showed again that she is 100% my daughter. We went to the Golden Coral (You know when you are south at least one meal must be there) and Daddy put some grits on his plate. I have to tell you folks that I had to go get seconds because my princess devoured my grits. She clearly enjoyed them and she feasted on her pancake too.
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
A Few Spare Moments
Well it is June 27th and i am sitting in the office with a few moments to myself. I just got off the phone with Mommy and CJ is doing well. I almost cried when I heard her voice. Not hearing or seeing her for any amount of time is killing me, I thought I would be able to cope but I do not know If I will be able to make it.
I am finally getting over the sickness from last week. The last antibiotic will be taken tomorrow. I am eating much better and I keep water within a two inch radius. The first few days has been interesting. I am not really feeling everything, not in the swing yet.
So I am gonna keep trucking and missing my baby. Keep praying folks, it changes things, people, and situations.
I am finally getting over the sickness from last week. The last antibiotic will be taken tomorrow. I am eating much better and I keep water within a two inch radius. The first few days has been interesting. I am not really feeling everything, not in the swing yet.
So I am gonna keep trucking and missing my baby. Keep praying folks, it changes things, people, and situations.
Cuddling in th Comforter
Another day has gone by and I only could hear CJ's voice. I call periodically throughout the day to check in on her to see if I am missing out on anything. I really thought that this would be easier than it is. I saw it as just a few nights away from home but this first week is extended and it is dragging along.
I received a call from Mommy today and she let me know that she was cuddling with CJ in a special blanket that I got for her. It brought a smile to my face when she text me that information. I have to live off of visuals while I am away. It does not help that everywhere I turn someone is asking about her. From the cleaning crew, to my students, and my colleagues always ask hoe Daddy's little girl is coming along. I think that if I did not have to answer so many questions about her it would be much easier.
I do get a treat tomorrow though. I get to sneak home and spend a few moments with CJ and Mommy. I have a follow-up with the doctor and Mommy needs to get out and do a few things so I am going to kill a few birds with one stone. I could go to the doctor and come straight back but that is not happening at all.
So tonight i will have to rest upon the vision of Mommy cuddling with CJ until they both fall asleep. I just hope that Mommy wakes up to take CJ to her crib. that way they will both be able to sleep comfortably. So I am going to go now, you all keep me in prayer. I still want to get back to 100% and i know that prayer changes things, people, and situations.
I received a call from Mommy today and she let me know that she was cuddling with CJ in a special blanket that I got for her. It brought a smile to my face when she text me that information. I have to live off of visuals while I am away. It does not help that everywhere I turn someone is asking about her. From the cleaning crew, to my students, and my colleagues always ask hoe Daddy's little girl is coming along. I think that if I did not have to answer so many questions about her it would be much easier.
I do get a treat tomorrow though. I get to sneak home and spend a few moments with CJ and Mommy. I have a follow-up with the doctor and Mommy needs to get out and do a few things so I am going to kill a few birds with one stone. I could go to the doctor and come straight back but that is not happening at all.
So tonight i will have to rest upon the vision of Mommy cuddling with CJ until they both fall asleep. I just hope that Mommy wakes up to take CJ to her crib. that way they will both be able to sleep comfortably. So I am going to go now, you all keep me in prayer. I still want to get back to 100% and i know that prayer changes things, people, and situations.
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